"We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are."

(Anais Nin)

Ugh. How am I today? Jittery. Strung out. Frazzled. I can feel my skin. I didn't need my 2 pm cup of coffee (I was already wired.)

So instead of going to the free This Side of Eve concert tonight (sorry Alyssa!), I'm going to have a nice dinner somewhere (why isn't Abaté open yet?) and get the apartment ready for tomorrow's jewelry party. Maybe I'll watch My Dinner with Andre, a movie my boss recommended.

Oh, and we'll decrease the Zoloft tomorrow by 50 mg, since it's been like this all week and hasn't gotten better. (A mood change is defined by how long it lasts--if you're up or down for more than three days, it can clinically be called depression or hypomania or mania.) If you're only down for one day, it doesn't count on the main scheme of things, which is why I only contacted my psychiatrist today.

Brrring! That was my boss calling to say she'd be a couple minutes late. And here I was thinking she was probably already in the back office getting ready to come out...I love my boss. She just came back from Ireland and is in good spirits. I have an Ireland magnet which now adorns my desk, along with the Antartica magnets from the parent's visit this winter.

Yesterday NH Sally said if only you could bottle hypomania. I told her there's a book out there where a guy talks about that--he's convinced that 80% of New Yorkers are operating on hypomania...but what comes up must come down...

Anyways, I realize this is a pretty boring post, but the AN quote was what hit me. Right now I'm not seeing things as they are, I'm seeing them as I am, and that's giving me a pretty frazzled world view. I wonder if there are any Chant CD's upstairs? Somehow I think calm music on the drive home would be a good idea.

Guess that's what an online catalog is for...

Til later...I have pictures to post n'at...