morning random thoughts

My current FB status line: Sarah Louise has a full tank of gas. That won't last...and at 40 cents off per G, it still wasn't cheap. But I can't walk to work.

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I have ignored my cell-alarm too many times but it's not yet eight o'clock. When I woke up and thought first of getting on the computer I thought, have I made this piece of glass and plastic my God? The thing about praying right when I wake up is that I might fall asleep. So I turned on the computer and while it woke up read Psalm 63 and Psalm 91. Which are both really great.

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Yesterday Beth Moore was riding us like crazy to go out and live life. I felt like she was talking to me directly, a not so uncommon occurrence. My notes are in the car. And there goes my alarm again, to the tune of the theme to SATC.

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And I walked yesterday! I never walk on Tuesdays, I'm too busy! But yesterday I did! And OMG (literally, Oh, my God, but in the way it should be said, like, Wow! God! You Rock!), I saw two, no three wild turkeys. And the last one saw me and preened for me. It puffed up huge and showed its feathers. I couldn't see them, so I just stood there, on the other side of the chain link fence. It did it again, and I still couldn't see. The third time, it turned towards me, and it was a beautiful sight. I'd seen them on TV, colored them in on Thanksgiving coloring sheets, but wow, to see one in real life...it's not like seeing a peacock, mind you, but still amazing in its own way. I thought about the symbolism of it turning toward me after the third time. It was sort of a test between us, like I was saying to the turkey, I won't leave until you show me your feathers, a weak comparison to Jacob wrestling the angel and not letting go "until you bless me." (Genesis 32:28 and surrounding verses)

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hmmm, do you see how God twice nudged me to link to Biblegateway.com? Little teaser, that Holy Spirit and darn if my cell isn't telling me that it's 8:11!!

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Crap! I just realized that I'm taking the early dog tomorrow!! And I haven't even started packing! I'm just la la la, what will I do tomorrow before work? Um, not going to work tomorrow...and I have to be at work in 45 minutes, so if I want a shower, I better get one.

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My dad called, no time for shower, and apparently I thought I posted this but didn't.

*********So, a few random night thoughts************

Why do I procrastinate packing??? WHY WHY WHY? The process itself maybe takes an hour, if you include counting out pills. And yet I have been "packing" since I got home around 7:30pm. It's now 11:27 pm.

I'm seriously screwed up. And I can't find contact paper, a key component to my mother's day gift.

You know what this is, right? Perfectionism, which is pride...

Yeah. It's 15 minutes shy of midnight, and I am leaving the house around 6:30 tomorrow morning or so...